2020’s Wild Ride

Lately I find myself low on patience and tired. It’s been hard to feel normal when the world around you isn’t what you used to know. Where we would go to any beach on a hot day freely. Where walking on the sidewalk and passing someone wasn’t a big deal. Where grocery shopping was something you did as a family.

Life has been crazy for the last few months. Things have been canceled and I have felt such a wide range of emotions. So many other events have occurred to really wake me up. The murder of George Floyd and COVID hitting has really just been hard. Emotionally and mentally. The world has been shaken.

Being home with my children, literally with no place to go has been a blessing and had its hardships. It’s been nice to slow down and enjoy each day as it comes without having such a jam packed schedule of places to go and people to see. But it’s also been hard. I haven’t been able to do my normal things to take “breaks” Wine out with a girlfriend or just treat yourself to a pedicure. Even just thrifting alone. It’s been harder to find the “normal” in the everyday life. It’s hard to admit staying home all the time with your kids is hard because of the fear someone will think your a bad mom. Since that’s simply not the case. I’m still human and yes I do need time to myself. This is my recharge so I can take on the tasks all over again.

The world and nature is recharging with us all home. I’m thankful for all of this. Keeping positive has been hard. My emotions get the best of me at the most unexpected times. It feels like even special days are “just another day.”

I know I’m not alone in this. I know many of us feel many different emotions daily and we all need the reassurance that it’s ok. This will pass. But don’t dismiss these feelings. Let yourself feel them and acknowledge all the things around you. You are only human. We are complex and flawed but oh so perfectly beautiful too. So just know I get it. This is hard. But let’s keep pushing forward to one day (hopefully) soon be able to get back to normal. It won’t be fast but it will feel so good to have the little bits of our everyday back.