Becoming a Mom

For as long as I can remember I have wanted to be a mom and in my heart knew I would be one some day. I always dreamed of having a daughter who is my little twin. Just like me in every way.

I was finishing my second last semester of college and had 3 big exams but my period was late about a week. I figured stress from exams was the reason as that’s been something that has happened in the past. So I took a pregnancy test and well... it was positive! What great timing to take the test as I now had a HUGE distraction trying to write my exams.

After I made a doctors appointment and found out I was 6 weeks along but my hormone levels were off and threatened miscarriage. My heart shattered hearing those words. So I cannot imagine what moms feels loosing a baby at any point. My heart truly goes out to you!

I ended up having a successful pregnancy and having a beautiful baby girl, who in the end is EXACTLY like me! Which is both a blessing and a challenge. But she’s only 3 so she’s still learning to be herself.

My delivery however was no what I had planned or expected. I laboured for 33 hours and needed a c section. It was very traumatic and I lost a lot of blood and ended in the ICU needing extra care. I spent very little time with my baby once she was born and 3 days in the ICU. I cried everyday not being able to see the brand new baby I had just delivered. But thank god everyday she was healthy. 10 pounds 4 ounces that “little” girl was. I couldn’t believe my body created a human let alone one so big!

But that was my introduction into motherhood and it’s been a blessing of a journey so far and I am so excited for everything to come! My first baby is now 3.5 and I have had my second child a little boy and he’s already turned 1! Time is flying!